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OH MY GOD. i swear i just turned into a bitch today.... AGAIN there's other drama going on this week.
okay so here what happened....
on monday, i showed up school with my glasses on because i overslept so i didnt have time to change to contacts, so instead i changed at school. so then later after school. i came up to alex, and bunch ppl like chloe& her boyfriend. chloe was like whispering to me saying that alex wants to beat ur brother up. i was like what the fuck?! so i asked alex what was the hell, he said that my brother called him a nigger. i was like seriously. then yesterday, alex just kept getting all pissy when i tells him to just back off, who cares if he called you a nigger. like my brother calls me that all the times. so i got really mad, i refused talk to him today. i was like avoiding him all day. so he got mad and deleted me off facebook. then he sented me a message then i respond it. and he got mad cuz i was like annoying him, WTF i wasnt even annoying him.. so he blocked me on facebook. so i was like so mad. i decided to take a walk to the park and in the little desert behind my house. i swear i just random broke down.. i was like cried and cried for like 5 minutes then i finally pull myself back in place. then i was like screaming out loud saying im finished with this fucking stupid shits. and i just went and deactivated my facebook, so alex cant even contact me anymore even same with robert. also freaking get people to get out of my life,, stop causing dramas.....
i only broke down because i just have been going through so much drama lately, i was just really hurt. like seriously is that how i start my year? well it is a hell so far. alex just cant get it,, i have been going through so many drama, more than he thinks. like first one was with alex around august. then other one with robert, probably like 3 times in like 2 months, then 2011 finally ended.... but guess what,, 2 other freaking stupid drama started. well not just high school drama, i am going through a family drama too, there was like prob more than 5 dramas since in my family. im guessing more than 10 dramas that i have been going through.
so i am done, i will never give alex other chance because of how my brother and alex hates each other so much plus he was very not respectful to me. he actually hurt me.... AGAIN. so i am fucking done.
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ugh today was kinda okay. i came to school and i was like really tired because i didnt have a chance to get a sleep that like pass out for more than 10 min. i couldnt even sleep last night because too much stuff going on my mind. i barley could even smile in first 2 classes and lunch. my stomach hurts so bad, i couldnt even eat. until my 4 hour, which is pe so i finally got very hyper, i was dancing around like a idiot. then my last hour was freaking boring. i was actually sleeping but i had my eyes open, the teacher just kept on talking and talking... didnt even notice i was half asleep haha.
anyway i actually made through the day knowing that robert isnt missing anymore. because yesterday he ran away, was missing for like 6 hours. then finally went home like really late at night. so but he wasnt at that new school that he was supposed to go to now, so i freaked out. luckily the principal willing call his parents and they said that robert is at home with them. thank god.
i realized how much i hates everything about robert but not alex. i love everything about alex. everytime i look back all of old messages on facebook, skype or whatever from alex, it gives me butterflies. it just makes me so happy when i look at it. im so happy because i gave alex 2 long hugs after school:) when i came out of class and saw bunch of ppl like chloe her boyfriend, alex and his friends. so i came up and alex hugged me but i didnt let it go for a bit. then i went up to talk to chloe then i just realized that i have to run to the student parking to catch my brother because hes my ride home. so i went and gave alex long hug. i was kinda squeezing him haha. then i left. and i felt alot better
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amber& i curled our hair, and it looked like poodles hahah. it was great weekendd :) 
okay alright i will explain what happenedd ♥
ok so on friday, i was in horrible mood but luckily at school was very easy like first hour, my english teacher let us talk whole class, second hour math teacher decided to give us a fun activity. lunch was so fun. then pe, we played captured flag it was so fun. then my life facs class, we all went to kitchen to make a cereal with chocolate frosting and peanut butter on it, it was so yummy. so then my phone, well old phone now, it randoms fell apart. i swear i was sooo pissed off. so amber gave me her old phone it was LG env touch, it was like so brand new, she only used it for like a month so she gave it to me. so my mom took me to verizon the next day to switch my old phone to that phone. so on friday night i spend the night at ambers. had blast! then on saturday i went home around 4 to go to verizon. then i came home.. got on facebook and alex asked me if i want to skype, so i said sure. then we talked for like 3 hours.
we kept joking around and insulting each other like gay, loser etc. he was like well u need to give me a hug when u see me. i was like why lol and he was like because i love ur hugs. i was like awww! so we end up talking bout robert, how i refuse forgive his apology (because robert cussed me out for no reason like week ago, i got so pissed off, then he tried to apologize but i refuse forgive him.) so we was talking about that stuff. then we started flirting, it was naughty;) haha. then my dog started to barking really loud, and i didnt know my speaker was on. because we was using the chat thing not talk through skype. so i was like shittt when he told me that my speaker was on haha. even he could hear everyone screaming and laughing or whatever from downstair. well that how my family are when they are not around strangers. so alex started to saying how im so pretty and stuff and told me what he think about me. it was so cute of him:) then we kept on talking til robert called him on the phone. alex wouldnt tell me what was they talking about. so then finally told me that alex told robert that alex likes me and robert was fine with it. plus he told robert that i likes alex too. and stuff. then he asked me if he could kiss me when he sees me, i was like sureee. so then he had to go. so on sunday i stayed home, having time for myself. 
so today before school, i came in the cafeteria. that where chloe and her boyfriend usually sits in the corner on table. even tho that where alex and his friends sit too. so i was like yawning, then alex stood up and walked up to me and was copying me yawning hahah. then he was like come with me, and told his friends that he got to do something for a min. so he and i was walking out of cafeteria, and went to somewhere private, then he kissed me. so we started makeout. it was amazing:) so we walked back in cafeteria. chloe was like glaring at me and said that was pretty short time. i whispered in her ears, and told her that happened. and she jumped and was like OMG girll. it was so funny. but this girl brittney who likes alex too, she look so pissed off. 
so guess what i was in first hour with micaela, i was just working on my missing works. and micaela passed me a note. saying "robert is coming to school and threatened to beat up alex". i was like what the?! i asked her what do u mean. she said that he texted her that hes coming. i was like what whyy?? she said he found out that me and alex made out. i was like oh my god, so i told the securities that he is coming. because he wasnt supposed to get on the school property because he got expelled. so later i kept getting texts from robert so principal called me and micaela to the office to show him all of the text. then robert ran away, his texts totally sound like he was gonna kill himself. so i freaked out. and some stupid shits have been happening all day. then now finally home. i hided my phone in my room. refused check it, because im freaking done with shit. seriously why do my day has to be go from amazing to horrible. just in a second. :/ me& alex finally kiss first time in like more than 5 months. i finally got so happy and i had butterflies all morning, i kept squeaking and stuff. ugh i just hope tomorrow will be back to normal again. i swear if theres one more drama happens this week. im freaking done, i prob gets so bitchy and refuse talk to anymore, and pretty much gonna leave my phone home too.

im happy that i could just post anything on piczo without getting some one who i know seeing this because all i know no one at my school knows about this website. :) 
im talking to alex right now on facebook, i just hope he gonna cheer me up, well ofc i will always be so happy if i have a chance to talk to alex like always :) ok so i just hope everything will be fine tomorrow. wish me luck.
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Thursday 12 January 12 23:54
seriously people need to stop bully innocence people. no body cares if they are fat, gay, lesbian, even deaf or special kids. NO ONE IS PERFECT.
also i would like to say thank you to all of people who i grew up with in same school ever since 1 grade. that i want to say thank you guys for make me to learn how to stay strong, and i am happy for who i am right now. all you guys did was make fun of me, im really happy you guys did.

so if one of you are being bullied, stand up for yourselves. who cares about what others think about you, just ignore them and live your life happily. see how i stood up for myself, even tho i posted some of this on facebook show how much im happy with my life. i bet those kids realized they was stupid enough to bully me first place.
the reason why i posted those things on here. because this girl who goes to my school, she shoted herself because she was bullied ever since she was little. so she killed herself last week. it was really sad. then again this week i heard that one of the sophomore boy is being bullied right now. im like soooo pissed off. those people who made fun of the girl, idk if u guys have heard of her. Quinn Lombardi.
anyway between me and alex. we have been doing pretty good now. we havent even talk about the thing that happened at night before new year.
but i finally asked alex if we could be good friends like we used to be in 7 grade. and robert cant get mad about it because he got no control over me at all. so alex was like sure. so we pretty much good friends now :) he gave me a hug this morning. i miss his hugs. ♥
also robert got caught for having weeds in his backpack today. he got expelled, im happy because i hate having to see him at school everyday, he still is in love with me, its just so annoying. well its not my fault, he always high even during school from smoking weeds. plus when robert leaves school then alex can do whatever he wants with me like be good friends , date again or something without get robert piss off. omg micaela told me that she talked to robert last night on facebook. robert was like saying how much he misses me and stuff, robert just need fucking to move on, ugh. even tho he asked micaela if i likes alex, micaela said no. and it was very awkward when she told me about that part then she asked me if i still like alex. i was like noo..? it was so close. well i kinda still do like alex. he told me to do not ever tell micaela or anybody other than amber because it might will ruins his &roberts friendship. so i just hate how i have to lie to micaelas face, well i had to because she might will tell robert. i know it might could end up a huge drama if i tells micaela. so i dont want that to happen.
im trying to avoid any drama. im like trying do everything just to not start drama somehow. i kinda have a feeling that there might be a big drama happen someday. well i hope not!
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okayy sooo, i dont really have much to say since i already poured out everything out of my heart on last blog like couple days ago. just want to let you guys know that i made a video of me dancing... LIVE :) its on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixBpKVLK7Aw&feature=channel_video_title ...... you guys will know its me cuz im the shorty one :P plus im only one who have dirty blonde hair lol....                                  .also you will see brianna the one who i talked about on last blog.. she is the tallest one with long black hair. you guys will see her when she lifts me in the air. ( the one called set fire to the rain, the first one that showed on the video... other dance called 'man, i feel like a woman' (you will know when if were dressed up like cowgirls with a pink top and a vest on). so brianna lifted me in the air. in both dances.. so try not to get confused with other girl who is tall and black hair too, her name is paige (the girl who was behind me while lifting me in the air in 'man, i feel like a woman') lol.ok so i will shut up now lol. hopefully you guys would watch it :) also tell more people to watch it too,, only if your interested in it :)
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